GHOSTS AND MONSTERS

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There were many ghosts and monsters in my childhood.

  • My father, an alcoholic
  • My mother, the codependent
  • My father’s drunken friends
  • Having to ride in his truck, being taken home while he drove drunk
  • My grandmother’s pale, white face, when she was dying
  • Hiding places to avoid rage and violence

 

A story that begins Fire Heart seems out of place, about the ghosts of St. Agnes Sanitarium. But is it?

After all, this is a love story. Yes, but it’s how a woman who has come of age, ...

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BOXING HUMANS-MORE THAN VAGINAS AND PENISES

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MY BODY- I LOVE IT/I HATE IT

 

I’ll never forget the afternoon, almost eleven years ago, when I was in counseling. I was getting therapy after my son’s traumatic brain injury.

It had been a difficult few weeks—no, actually the whole damn year had been hell—and I was trying to find peace anywhere I could find it.

The therapist listened as I poured out my pain.

Of course as a mother, I was feeling guilty about not being able to console or soothe my ...

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MOM BEGINS TO CHECK OUT: A CODEPENDENT IS BORN

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After dressing in jeans and my cheer jersey, I went bounding down the stairs and found my mother at the kitchen table. That morning, her body and round face, surrounded by her dark, curly, dyed hair, seemed to be smaller.

I didn’t realize how my life was changing. Even as I resisted, my boundaries were being redefined. I was making new friends, and the things I was involved in were sophisticated.

The importance of my parents was diminishing.

As I looked at Mom ...

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How I prayed when my father raged

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We all handle fear differently.

When we grow up in a family battling addiction, we cross our fingers (sometimes our toes) and hope for the best every day. We never knew what we going to get when my father came home, or when we came home.  This is how Shadow Heart Opens.

I always prayed the same way at night: “Now I lay me down to

sleep. I pray the lord my soul to keep. If I die before I wake, I pray

the ...

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WHY RE-RELEASE A BOOK?

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WHY GO TO ALL THE TROUBLE TO REWORK A BOOK, AFTER PAYING THOUSANDS OF DOLLARS TO EDITORS, PROMOTION SITES, FORMATTERS, DESIGNERS, AND OTHER PROFESSIONALS IN THE BUSINESS?

BECAUSE READERS ASKED FOR IT.

WILL I EVER RE-RELEASE ANOTHER BOOK IF FEEDBACK TELLS ME I SHOULD CONSIDER IT? YES, BUT THIS BOOK, SHADOW HEART, IS DONE, FINISHED, AND THAT’S IT.

First I want to say thank you to all the readers, both with positive and negative comments, who gave me constructive feedback. To have ...

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